Uss Rab Nu Manauna Okha Nahi,

Do Nafl Parho Rab Mann Jaanda;

Je Yaar Kisse Da Russ Jaway,

Nach Nach Ke Manauna Penda Aye!

Throughout my life, I have heard these words of poetry from one mouth or another. I thought I understood its meaning well; it means that it is easy to appease the god but it's far more difficult to appease a person you love. But it turns out that all along it meant that if God is a rab to you, can easily please him by offering prayers but if you think of God as a beloved than it is not your prayers but the love that dances in your feet that will appease him.

Although my heart aches but I feel as if all the words are turning into their essence; as if all the material things are turning into energy . 6 years back, I was on a different path in my quest for answers; today it seems as if all those words I have learnt are finally shaping into their real forms; I am finally finding out what they mean.

I remember I had an elderly patient in the CCU who used to call me very lovingly; look at me with his knowing eyes and said these words repeatedly 

khuda tujhai kisi tofaan sai ashna kardai .

He said it was his prayer for me. At that time I knew what he meant but I  just used to reply with a cheeky smile because I knew that if I would have said what I wanted to ;we both would have cried our hearts out and would have developed a unique bond difficult to let go. 

khuda ap k tofaan ko kinara de de 

This my prayer for you

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rest in peace